I haven't written anything for a couple of weeks. You ask why? Well, because, I'm working on the DNA and one day I'm up because I think I've found the link. Then the next day I'm down because it wasn't the link I needed. Then I get all revved up to write and, not sure here how to explain, but I'm afraid to write something, afraid that it isn't it, and afraid that when I do find out the results of the DNA tests it will not be what I expected.
Oh my goodness, did I explain that well enough? Probably not.
Yesterday I found a folder I had tucked away because I moved on to something else. In it were letters that had been written back in 1998 and 1999. When I first found out my father wasn't my father I wrote letters upon letters to everyone with the last name of Wyburn. Hoping someone would answer and give me a lead. Well I did get a couple letters returned but I was filled with more questions than answers.
I found a friend of my mother's, who was very close in the late 30's and early 40's. She even gave me her phone number, and was very helpful in a sense, but still no clue to who Wyburn was. What she told me was that he wore a leather jacket and rode a motorcycle, and he liked to dance. So did my mother. And through the years I do remember my mother liked to dance. Maybe that is where I got it from!
I was able to find relatives of Wyburn (two cousins) who have helped me with providing pictures. Since then I've looked at the pictures a thousand times but I'm not sure what I'm looking for.
Open one door......four years ago. While in South Carolina for my grandson's graduation from Ft. Jackson my daughter and I were talking about Chris. She said she just didn't know who he looked like. In a lot of ways he did look like his father but Chris had such big ears and a large nose that she didn't know who that came from. I joked about it and forgot about it.
Then about a year ago Chris posted a picture of himself on facebook and it hit me in the face. Wow I've seen that person before. I pulled Wyburn's picture out and sure enough, the same nose and ears.
I studied these two pictures until I was cross eyed. My conclusion.....I'm too close to the story and I see what I want to see. But then I looked at another picture and say my other grandson's eyes in Wyburn's picture.
This is the only picture I could find of the grandson and it is probably hard to see the eyes. But I saw it.
Again, I am too close to the subject of finding my biological father that I think I'm seeing things I want to see. So it's back to the drawing board until I find a close (real close) match to my DNA.